usually I dun friend - lock my post...only if I post something stupid or something retarded that i dun want so many ppl knowing about it...yea..

If you add me I will definitely add you...but at least tell me who you are la..

For those LJ idiots...this post will forever be at the top...so if you want to see my latest post...scroll down..

 this is why sometimes i hate the internet. I typed sooo fucking much and all of it is gone within a backspace button. fuck.

anyways, my hamster died so i was bitching and moaning about it. the main reason why i wanted to note this down was because i actually wanted to box the body up and dump it to the trash bin. but half of me didnt wanted to do that. so my mother came and told me to bury it as the other time when our goldfish died, a malay boy came up to her and told her "auntie bury the fish! after bury will grow many many!". So after hearing the story I felt kinda guilty to even have the thoughts of trashing it. Even a boy could tell my mother to bury it.

this was the last picture i took of her before burying it.


rest in peace, hamster with no name..

 everytime when I want to write about something...i got lazy.

 fuck. i got so pissed off. why am i not selected? how much have i done for that shit place and you treat me like this. the feeling inside is really terrible. i don't want to make myself this tired anymore.

 long time no see.

the more i think of it the more pissed off i am

i has tumblr! 

 like one fucking bitch. sometime you are really fake. cannot be bothered with you anymore. sometimes i feel like giving you a chance to seee what you have to say but in the end the more we talk the more angry i get. you always want to talk about it. talk talk talk. like what fuck is talking gonna do? does it solve the problem? NO. it only makes me even more angry. EVERY single time.

   seriously. this is the 2nd time i cry at that place. some say i cry like small girl. with all the sniffing and everything. once i start crying, its like so difficult to stop. coz everyone keep asking me wads wrong wad wrong. i dun like it when ppl keep asking me. coz the more you ask. the more i feel like crying. the more i feel like crying the more the sniffing cannot stop. den when the sniffing cannot stop. I cannot talk properly. then its so embarrassing to cry in front of ppl but I cant stop it.

WHY must you think SO much?WHY cant you just let other ppl do the things they want? at their own pace? so what? I can multi-task right.cb think you very big think for others.why wont you ever change the way you talk to ppl? yes most of the times you treat everyone well. i like you as a friend. but sometimes why are you giving yourself so much stress that you are passing it to others as well? SO what if i cant finish the job by the time you go off? I have another hour more to do it right? I understand you are trying to help but your body language and the way you talk to ppl seriously piss me off. " I think about this i think about that I think later on what will happen i think i must finish this if not later on the others wont do i think i think i think" must you think so much?

both times i cried, you are the main reason. you are the one that make me cry. why I dun say this all in your face? coz it will cause ever more problem. its very hard to talk to you because i afraid it would lead to a quarrel.

I am a type of person that forgive and forget easily. if even I am seriously angry with the person, as long as I calm down and do other things, I would forget why was i angry at that time. I would not be able to recall the bad things about the person. only the good things. then again, maybe I bury all of these emotions in me for too long, I guess i am a human, and i need to let it out sometimes and these is most likely another reason why i couldnt stop crying.

I am definitely sure that you wont read this post at all, even thought its not locked. I just needed to let out all of these.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................. 
 

  The last post was during october. Its been a long time since i livejournal-ed. hahaha. These several months went on as per normal. school, work, some random outings and lots of kpop-ing... pon school a lot of times, I think the lecturers wants to debar me but maybe they thought that its my last sem so they close one eye lah.

  FYP was finally over last week, really a sigh of relieve even though we didn't do much. Must really thank our supervisor for his great help. He explain to us sooo many times but we didn't seem to understand, we even resort to recording his voice. hahaha

  Every year, fnc would give one month bonus to those part-timers who would work more than one year with them. It seems like this year we won't be getting any. kinda shitty actually. I was looking forward to it as I was working like siao for the past few months.

  Okay, whatever. dun feel like typing anymore. will just end here.



Kiss me, Don't eat me


LOL.